http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/ Home of the Greedy Toothfairy Sat, 05 Feb 2005 06:31:41 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/140.html Sat, 05 Feb 2005 14:27:47 GMT Today, for the first time in my life, I have conciously defeated my own heart. http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=140 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/138.html Fri, 31 Dec 2004 17:09:12 GMT I've changed. oh fuck, how I've changed. So, it's the end of the year. I'd have to say this year... really... fucked me up. Seems I'm back at square one. The square where no one cares. The square I've been trying to escape from all my life. I wish I could just sleep for days. I've been having alot of dreams lately and it's difficult to seperate reality from them. I can feel myself retracting from those who want to help, and I hope with all I have left that they won't leave me... which is already happening. Which has probably already happened. There's this empty feeling slowly knawing... (more) http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=138 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/137.html Thu, 30 Dec 2004 16:41:03 GMT So anyway, I just went through all my entries and edited them, deleted them, and all that fun stuff. All of my old blog entries helped me to see myself in a new light, helped me to capture new meaning in old words, and helped me better understand why I am the way I am... not that I like it. This break has pretty much been... well... an outlook-changer, to say the least. I know school is just inching closer and closer and this is one of those times I wish I had magical time powers and could just stop it all and hang around here a little longer... but then again maybe it's for the best I... (more) http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=137 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/136.html Wed, 15 Dec 2004 20:09:51 GMT My soul is enslaved by my brain, faster and faster, the world is too busy to care and I understand that technology governs us all. Ashlee Simpson forced me into the back corner of shame in my second hour today. Bower would smile at the sight of my bloody, half-decomposed head on his desk, but it's the same way vise-versa. I really wouldn't mind either way. Everything seems to be quite temporary - Which is one of the best and one of the worst realizations I have ever come to. Fifth Hour - A.J. (in this really annoying voice): Joan, are you having an identity crisis? Me: My... (more) http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=136 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/135.html Mon, 01 Nov 2004 23:55:53 GMT I've had enough. I've let my emotions take the best of me for too damn long. I took a few moments to look back at my life and I realized that I have accomplished absolutly nothing. Not one single damn thing, and I'd be suprised if I ever manage to change that. Everything seems to be a waste of time. Everyone seems to be a waste of trust. I'm sick of always picking myself back up again just so someone else can have a clear shot of beating me back down again. The scars are growing, the wounds reopening, time is spinning me around and stealing my breath. I just keep dieing, but never quite... (more) http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=135 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/133.html Thu, 21 Oct 2004 21:43:39 GMT YAY my computer stopped being a bitch! Well, I think I'm going to give the ol' blog a break and switch over to livejournal for a bit. Mine feels so... empty. So anyway, this is not the end, or even an attempt at one. I'll be back, and I'll probably post in here a few times here or there. So anyway, I would like to redirect all of you beautiful, wonderful people over to my not-as-awesome-as-this journal! http://livejournal.com/users/deathjubilee The best of wishes to you. http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=133 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/132.html Tue, 12 Oct 2004 03:34:59 GMT Ok, so I'm laying in bed staring up at the ceiling and I realize that there is a paper due for Medical Health Science. See, normally I would shrug it off and turn over to sleep, but, well, not today. I'm actually proud of myself for such a small accomplishment, and I thought I'd document it. So yea, here it is, Joan doing her project... ^_^ http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=132 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/130.html Sat, 09 Oct 2004 18:43:48 GMT And so here I am again. Saturday and bored. >_0 Planning on cleaning my room. Finished with the first two Manga volumes my friend lent me and halfway through the third. I've been quite interested in it, even thought most of it is pretty mindless. Right now I'm waiting for my macaroni and cheese to cook and then I'm going to eat it while reading "Sky High", a Manga with a story line. My jawline feels alright, I stopped taking meds for the most part. My feet have little scratches all over them from running to the bus yesterday morning, but they should heal up soon. I think the house is all... (more) http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=130 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/129.html Sat, 02 Oct 2004 18:33:56 GMT Ok, so here's how it went. Tom drives with me and my mom to the orthodontist people and then leaves shortly after to be late for class. My mom and I have to wait for around an hour for the person in front of us to go. We sit outside and watch this neat parrot until they call her on her cell. Then we walk inside and they take me to the back room and won't allow my mom to until they call her. They take my weight, then sit me down and put two monitors on my chest and one on my ribcage. Then they put on a blood pressure thingie and a pulse thingie in my finger. They let my mom in and then they... (more) http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=129 http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/archive/128.html Fri, 01 Oct 2004 14:13:09 GMT Don't go changing, to try and please me You never let me down before Don't imagine you're too familiar And I don't see you anymore I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble We never could have come this far I took the good times, I'll take the bad times I'll take you just the way you are Don't go trying some new fashion Don't change the color of your hair You always have my unspoken passion Although I might not seem to care I don't want clever conversation I never want to work that hard I just want someone that I can talk to I want you just the way... (more) http://bloodpizzasauce.blogdrive.com/comments?id=128